my life! aint urs!

how will u know if a guy loves u or not..

2005-08-29T16:23:00.000-07:00

10. You've forgotten your ex

More often than not, a breakup is followed by a
significant amount of time spent thinking about
your ex and wondering whether or not you made
the right decision in going your separate ways.
Depending on how long the two of you were
together, these doubts can resurface again and
again.

Ever since you met this new one, however, the
thought of getting back together with your ex is the
furthest thing from your mind. Come to think of it,
you barely recall what you found so great about her
in the first place.

9. You can't stop thinking about her

Instead, you are consumed by thoughts of her. She
just pops into your head for no apparent reason,
and you wonder if she thinks of you half as much
as you think of her. You wonder what she's up to
and even consider calling her (but refrain from doing
so for fear of looking overeager).

But it gets worse. You're out with your friends and
you see something in a shop window and think
about how much she would like that particular
item, or you notice a poster for a show that she
would love, but normally wouldn't even have looked
twice at it.

If she's the last thing on your mind before you go to
sleep and the first thing on your mind when you
wake up ‑- and you've even dreamed of her
on a
couple of occasions ‑- then you don't really
even
need to read on to know if you're in love (but should
anyway, just to be sure).

8. You care about her

There is a reason why you don't really want to
know too much about the chick you had a one-
night stand with: You don't love her. When you're in
love with a woman, you want to know all about her:
who she is, what she thinks, what makes her
laugh. You truly care about her and her feelings.

If you truly love a woman, you feel bad if she had a
bad day or is upset about something. You don't try
to cheer her up because you have to, but because
you can't help it.

7. You find her quirks charming

The fact that she carries her passport with her
everywhere she goes ‑- just in case
‑- and that,
when she's eating, she can't help but construct
every forkful so that it's the perfect blend of
ingredients fills you with an inexplicable feeling of
happiness.

She does and says things that make her different,
and you like it. You can't quite put your finger on
why, but it doesn't even matter. You like her just
the way she is.

6. You have great chemistry

You can't be in love with someone that you have no
chemistry with. If you seem to always be on the
same wavelength, and think in similar ways, that's
a great sign. If you also generate enough heat to
set off a five-alarm fire bell, then she is probably
someone that you could fall in love with, if you
aren't there already.

5. You don't notice other women as much

Did you see that gorgeous blonde that just walked
by? What do you mean, "no"?!?

Although you can't help noticing a beautiful woman
when one walks by, when you're in love, some of
them tend to slip under the radar, while others just
pale in comparison to her. Furthermore, you don't
seem to be flirting half as much as you used to.

You are slowly realizing that she's often the only
woman in the room that matters, and for some
reason that suits you just fine.

4. You love spending time with her

This one is pretty obvious but important
nonetheless. You look forward to seeing her, and
don't care much about what the two of you will be
doing. Lately, just going for a walk with her sounds
like the best way you could possibly spend an
evening.

Furthermore, when you're not together, you miss
her and wish you were spending time together.

3. You don't mind compromising sometimes

There was a time when it was your way or the
highway, but with her it's different. Not that she
asks you to, but you don't mind missing a night out
with the guys to be with her. And you find yourself
trying to incorporate her into your plans or altering
them to accommodate her.

You also find yourself not putting up a fight when
she wants to go to Shakespeare in the Park.
Although your friends find this very amusing, you
know that deep down, they wish that they had
found a love like yours.

2. Other priorities take a back seat

You used to train religiously, but lately, if she's free
for dinner, you don't mind missing a workout. Not
only that, but your workaholic tendency of bringing
home your work on weekends to get ahead seems
a bit excessive to you as of late.

Your ever-important "to do" list seems quite
stagnant these days, as being with her always
manages to render your other plans and obligations
obsolete. What was it that you absolutely had to
do by four o'clock again?

1. You start thinking about the future and she's in it

It used to be that the future with a woman meant
your date on Saturday night, but with this woman,
the future seems infinite. Not only do you plan to
see her this weekend, but you want to see her a
year from now as well.

When planning your next vacation, you know you
want to spend it with her, and not a random beach
bunny you happen to meet while you're there. And
when you get an invitation to a wedding that takes
place three months from now, you ask her to be
your date without thinking that it's too far away to
tell if you'll still be together.

She's the one
If you are currently dating a woman that makes you
act in any of the ways mentioned above, then you,
my friend, are seriously falling for her. It's time to
put away the little black book for a while and enjoy
the ride.

what can i do..

2005-08-27T01:01:00.000-07:00

bkit ganun?!..ndi ko na lam gagawin ko..steph told me to actualy talk 2 my mom bout alex but how can i do that im scared that it might end up worst than wuts happening now..i just dont know wut to do..all i can think about is that i wana be with him..i mis him i just hope he misses me too..bein away from someone u love is actualy hard as in really hard! harder than answerin a math prob! cause in math prob u actualy know that there's an answer but with my situation daym i dont know..i just dont know..oohhh this happened to me twice and the first one wasnt really that successful ryt?! he ended up with another and hated me! and now im scared wut if history will repeat itself?! actually its startin now..sometimes i just wana die thinkin that ill find peace in heaven?! oohh heaven nga ba?!lol... fuck im cryin again..oohh this is bad..then pla natatakot pa ko ksi madami xang girls and wut if may nkita xa..god that hurts men! and i just dont knoe if he really want to wait for me..i heard he was about to give up i just dont know now..u know wat im thinkin of?! if he loves me? hmmmm...fuck im really scared i dont know wut to do..can we actually survive with this situation?! or no?! hmmm..then ang hirap and bigat ng feelin pag nkkita mo xang online then u want to ask him how is he?!, have u eaten?!, r u ok?!, or wut gnwa mo ngayon?! but fuck u cant..oh well i tried talkin to him but he wont talk to me directly and thats so hard..fuck if i could just turn back the time! fuck! i just wana die=..( its also hard that ryt now walang nkakaintindi syo..fuck i miss reg! in times like this i really need her..hayyy fuckin life! neweiz i went to my school knna for orientation i kinda like it there hehe..i went to get my books and my uniform oohhh the uniform is cute! im like sailor moon! lol..neweiz gtg! i need to wash my face bka mkita nilang umiyak ako! lol

a sweet love story

2005-08-25T23:56:00.000-07:00

From the very beginning, girl's family objected
strongly on her dating this guy, saying that
it has got to do with family background, & that the
girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life
if she were to be with him. Due to family's
pressure, the couple
quarrelled very often. Though the girl loved the guy
deeply, she always asked him: "How deep is your
love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often
caused the girl to be very upset. With that & the
family's pressure, the gal often vents her anger
on him. As for him.. he only endured it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated &
decided to further his studies overseas. Before
leaving, he proposed to the gal: "I'm not very good
with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you
allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my
life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them
round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the
family finally gave in & agreed to let them get
married. So before he left, they got engaged.

The gal went out to the working society, whereas
the guy was overseas, continuing his studies.
They sent their love through emails & phone calls.
Though it was hard, but both never thought of
giving up.

One day, while the gal was on her way to work,
she was knocked down by a car that lost control.
when she woke up, she saw her parents beside
her bed. She realized that she was badly injured.
Seeing her mum cry, she wanted to comfort her.
But she rea! lized that all that could come out of
her mouth was just a sigh. she had lost her voice....

The doctor says that the impact on her brain has
caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her
parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out
from her, she broke down. During the stay in
hospital, besides silent cry.. it's still just silent cry
that accompanied her. Upon reaching home,
everything seems to be the same. Except for the
ringing tone of the phone which pierced into her
heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let
the guy know & not wanting to be a burden to him,
she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not
wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return,
the guy sent millions & millions of reply and
countless phonecalls.. all the gal could do
besides crying is still crying.... The parents
decided to move away, hoping that she could
eventually forget everything & be happy.

With a new environment, the gal learnt sign
language & started a new life. Telling herself
everyday that she must forget the guy.

One day, her friend came & told her that he's
back. She asked her friend not to let him know
what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't
anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with
an envelope, containing an invitation card for
the guy's wedding. The gal was shattered.
When she opened the letter, she saw her name on
it instead. When she was about to ask her friend
what was going on, she saw the guy standing in
front of her....
He used sign language to tell her, "I've spent a
year to learn sign language. Just to let you know
that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me
have the chance to be your voice. I Love You."
With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger.
The gal finally smiled......

> Treat every relationship as if it's the last
one, then you'll know how to Give.

> Treat every moment as if it's the last day,
then you'll know how to Treasure.

>Treasure what you have right now, or else you
may regret on

....

2005-08-25T00:40:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i write somethin in here oh wellzz..a lot of things happened to me some are happy and some r sad things!lol..well how will i start hmm maybe ill start by tellin u how my life is fucked up now haha well bcoz of mah stupid decisions b4 it ended up like this if guys only know how hard this is being away from someone u rily love and havin no to talked except urself..well im not crazy i jus really nid 2 take this shit out lol! gosh its hard wen ur true friends are far away! i wish one day we will all be together and everythin will be back to normal..neweiz i have a new guy by the way his name is alex hehe..we've been together for just a week and of course shit happens i just dont know wuts the reason why we have to be apart like this gosh its so fuckin hard!i miss him so much..if he only knew how much i cared for him i just hope we'll still see each other but ryt now wer tryin to deal with it! hehe..its funny last nyt we really wanted to talked to each other knowin that we cant we did it by writin it in the status of ym! thanx for ym status! lol we wer able to talked hihihi..well he looks like my ex but better!lol..he treated me like im a princess that sometimes i tend to take him 4 granted..i just wish i didnt do that..if i can just turn back the hands of time i wouldn't do that and i'll make everyday a special one..yah its true that u'll only realize how much a person is worth is if he's gone..hayyy..i duno wuts in him that made me fall that fast! yup yup thats true hahah..i thought i can never forget ralph but hell i did! hahaha..i really hope that he'll wait for me! and he wont do stupid things! ohh wellzz.. next ima try to go to school hey i dropped out of public school! daym that pub schl sucks! foh realz! hahahah..but i met my friends there! so in a way im thankful! heheh..oh wellzz ill fix my life i know thats what they want! (they-term for people who actually cares fo me!) ahhaha so there ima smoke na lol!

watah bday..

2005-05-27T00:12:00.000-07:00

hayyyy..grabe wut a bday..hehe.. i got a total of $400 as a gift hahaha..neweiz this bday is the worst i miss my bday in phil. hehe..i realized that in life you cant have everything you want sometimes dreams will only stay as a dream that you'll think of 24/7..do you know the feeling of being left by someone you rily care about?!..hayyy its really sad when you believe in someone over and over again you feel like a stupid person..well i am stupid and thats a fact!!hahaha..its sad when you gave up everything but still he cant appreciate it and do the same..you'll end up crying and depressed..but you cant do anything..thats sad noh?..you want to kill that person but you cant, you want to messed up with his life but you cant all you have 2 do is to get over it asap..coz if not it will really ruin your life like whats happening now with mine..hayyy sometimes life is really cruel huh?..i hate my life..why am i this fuckin stupid oh well..

ayoko na

2005-05-20T10:05:00.000-07:00

grabe ayoko na i wana die!!d ko na alam gagawin ko feeling ko ang tanga (d pla feeling 22o pla) hehe..naguguluhan nko d ko alam..nahihirapan nko tlga lgi nlng gn2!i hate myself! i hate my life! and i hate him!!

hayyy

2005-05-05T22:06:00.001-07:00

garabe nakakalungkot sa school iba prin tlga pag af hahah... mga ksam ko puro armanian hehehhe kaya na mamaster ko ang english skills ko hehehehhe..may kasalanan aq sa af hehhehe sors sors sors!!! kami na ulit !!! im sorry blu i think it must be luv nga tlga.. isang bobong pagibig hahahha..at akoy nalulungkot dhil bobo aq hehehehhehe..i rily mis u guys il go home next year and mgbeach tyo nkkaingit ang zambales nyo hekhek..

hayyy

2005-05-05T22:06:00.000-07:00

going to school again..

2005-04-28T11:31:00.000-07:00

my god ppasok nnman ako..hayyy sa monday 1st day k sa school..nkakatokot..kmain kya ko sa washroom hahahhaha...grabe bagong buhay wla kong kilala..hayyyy...nweiz na perfect ko un test sa school kya lalagay nila k sa grade 12 kya lng kailangn k p cmpletuhin un requirements pra mka aral aq sa university..god d k na kya mg aral hahahahha..nweiz sobrang wla kong mgwa..nlulungkot nko..mlpit na ikasal c _ _ _. next week na daw..bkit b kc pinilit p xa ng dady nya bwist..nkklungkot..ndi xa pwede iksal hahahhahahah..as if nman..pro i know wla nkong mggwa kundi umiyak at mgdsal hahahhahah..hayyyy..

buhay baboy..

2005-04-19T12:41:00.000-07:00

hahaha..grabe ngayon nsa bhay nnman aq bulok na..ginawa k lng kumain at matulog..parang gs2 k na pumasok na ndi kc natatakot aq hahahha..kc bago lhat..nweiz ktxt k c rap thenhe told me na ndi na 2loy kasal niya..then nangiti aq pro naisip ko so? e cla prin nman tskkk mga lalaki tlga mhilig mgpaasa..bullshit tanga nman mga babae umaasa hahahha..weird..nweiz bad3p kc dapt mgkkita n kmi n ged and papayosihin nya ko but no!!!ndi n2loy kc wla kming way para magkita..shit bulok nko d2 ahhhhhhh...gs2 k mkalis sympre ggamitn k un gift k sa srili k un coach n bag hahha..coolness!!im proud of it kc for the first time nkabili ako ng galing sa hirap and pagod ko hahhaha...neweiz nagjug ako knna kc msikip n un pants ko kya kailangan pmyat ng konti hahha..

2005-04-09T09:01:00.000-07:00

god bkit ganito ang bhay ko shit tlga..bkit ganito ang buhay ndi nko smaya ahhhh

My day

2005-04-07T21:15:00.000-07:00

grabe today is a sad day walang ginagawa and wlang mkausap!!hahaha i mis u guys lhat lhat kyo!!!!kwnthan nyo nmn aq..ahuahu..ang hirap ng work ko lalabo na ang mata ko ay malabo na pla hahahahhaha